Don't know why am I so emotional tonight?
Too tired?
But am still watching tv alone in the living room.
Why is it so?
I don't know.
I couldn't sleep. So many things are inside my mind.
I start to feel that is it so hard when you are growing up.
The process is just so miserable while your parents put so much hope on you and provide you with the best.
Is it just me or for everyone?
I just couldn't help and stop thinking.
I like the phrase 没有人能够阻止你伤心，但愿你能找到快乐的理由
可是没有人令我伤心，我却找不到快乐的理由
爸，我想你了
我想回家了

I don't normally cry in front of people.
because people used to think that am the tough, strong & bossy one.
*that's what I think*
But I do rant & swear a lot in front of people.
that's my way of releasing stress and tension.

I don't normally tell my parents how sad I am, how busy I am.
I only tell the happy ones.
I tried not to let them worried.

I remembered once.
I told my dad that I miss home.
He's first reaction was, darling are u okay? is everything fine?
I was really missing home, but when he said that.
I felt no fine. I just keep thinking why is everything so hard without them by my side.
But I know.
Eventually I need to learn.

I learn not to go home so often.
I learn how to grow up and handle myself.
I learn how to love myself more.

I learn that Big Girls Don't Cry.
<3



很久没有想家了
早上醒来
头很痛
冲凉时
眼眶红了

虽然有车了
自由了
能想买什么就买什么了
能想做什么就做什么了
没有说自己不快乐
只是
厌倦了

日夜颠倒
睡不定时
吃不定时
身体都坏了

很久没有回家了
我
想家了

那种
倦鸟归巢的感觉
我懂了

i love them with all my heart, my soul.
they are important than anything in this world.

how much you love your family?
or i should ask do you love your family?
tell me, will you?



was studying for tomorrow's management test.
ter-read something on my msn list.

Have you ever love and lost somebody, wish there was a chance to say I'm sorry?

vey heart broken actually when I accidentally read this sentence.
just.....
heart broken.
sigh.

八十分的幸福是否已足够

一百分，曾经属于我

if you are reading this